Wednesday, December 5, 2007

Time of my life...

I am finding time to blog after a long time, last one week i have been slogging my butt off for a project which finally i couldnt manage to grab. Apart from this i have been working on making a presentation for ACC Ltd., the presentation was decent, was appreciated a lot by our director which is a achievement. Also one good thing that happened was that i got through the L'oreal Elimination round and we'll be competing at national level now. So besides working i have been enjoyin my time with my friends here. There have been rough times with people here and we are all in a confusion.. I dont know where i will go from here but I love this place and the people here.

So finally after slogging so hard we had a party time!!

Sushrut, a super-sensible senior had organised a party to celebrate his selection in Avalon and his b'day party. It was a superbly organised party.

We were very few juniors and as soon as we reached there i heard my name being called and then i realised that i had to do paper dance :)

It was all fun as i had to do it with charu, a heavy proper punjabi gal :) no she is a very sweet, shy and sincere girl. She was so afraid of falling that she wouldnt let me lift her, but finally we made it to final round and decided that we will have to leave early before final starts :)

I had good fud and a great time with all the friends together.

All in all post-diwali SCMHRD has been a heaven!!

Saturday, September 8, 2007

Changing face of change


How does it feel when you lose something u owned since 22 years? Down, broken, maybe even crying like a kid. That’s exactly what I am close to. I have lost my leanness :( I have been thin and lean since my childhood, all the desperate efforts of my entire family tree failed badly to raise the girth around my tummy. I wasn’t satisfied, I used to make fun of people who used to worry about getting fat and today I realise what it means to feel fat :( to be fat is a simpler feeling but feeling fat is something really different and its not enjoyable :)
There are lot of important things that I lost and I made a long mourning for few, some of them worth a laugh and some of them really bad - as if a child had lost its mother. I felt the world to be unjust, horrible place to live in;
thankfully I am not having the same feeling for losing my image of agreeableness. I say no to people quite easily now and for lot of things, I persuade people to do lot of things and that’s something new.
I don’t know whether I approve of this newness or I miss my old self, but I am not feeling guilty and that’s worth a mention.
One change I really regret is the fact that in spite of having a bundle of chocolates and big bars of chocolate lying at my disposal, I am not able to eat it, not out of any other reason but just because I don’t remember to eat it at correct time. Now this part of change is called dissonance, I m doing something which I don’t want to do and its out of compulsion.
One change I really detest is that I have forgotten to give gifts to people, some of my good friend’s birthdays just passed and I couldn’t get a gift or even a small card for them. This part of change I really detest. I hope to change it soon. To all my friends who have had a share of this behaviour of mine, I am sorry..
Well, on the whole, the change has been a change, its not something which can be compared with past performance, but I will wait for future, for my time to come.

Monday, August 6, 2007

its a hap happy happening birthday!!!!

the going is tough untill you decide where you are going!!



well when i was walking alone towards the hostel at 11:50 i knew exactly where i was going and why i was going, the place was hostel and the reason was birthday bumps.

but yeh i was pleasantly surprised, the place was heaven and the reason was friendship. i m glad to have such great friends, friends who care so much (make sure that i m in immense discomfort during celebration - by birthday bumps) and friends who take so much pains to make sure that i feel special (extended birthday bump rounds and well kicking does take efforts)

On a serious note, i have had a good day, a good day is a understatement infact. i just want to thank you all, everyone of u individually, who made it so special for me.

i dont know who all managed so many things and how did u guys find time but thanks a lot. special thanks to suchindran who makes sure we dont miss our old friends by bringing in huge cakes :))

its not just about the cakes and kicks, it just was a perfect day, except for the fact that my phone was not working and some people are really cross with me for that, i m sorry, i really m, but there is no power in my hostel since last three days :(

and yeh i have got some great gifts, such great gifts and so many cards. i never expected so much, but i m delighted and i am grateful. and yeh i got latest harry porter book as well!!

but yeh as usual the memories never forget and memories are never late, they strike at the right moment with the precise note.

i re-lived every birthday from my 11th standard and i missed all the people who were there somewhere but not quite here. i m sad that i've lost contact with few friends, but i m glad to know that so many are still holding on. as i always say, i m just lucky!!


It may just be the Bschool syndrome but as per the tradition I was wondering what all things have happened in last one year. What has changed in me?

The answer is so difficult to visualize that I cant manage the whole chain of events. I have tried it so many times, every night I end up my day thinking over the chain but I never manage to complete it.

Joining the dots is easier when you are looking back, impossible when you are looking ahead.

So today when I look back at the turn of events I realize the value addition in me because of those events. All of them have been extremely essential for what I am today, people appreciate lot of things about me today, most of which are in me because of the difficult times I have lived through.

all those people with whom i couldnt talk or was just able to talk for few seconds, i apologize and yeh i thought about u all and i m so glad that you called. thank you.

Saturday, July 21, 2007

where i m going??


An IIMA grad put it so aptly today, it was as if he was presenting my thoughts, it happens very often with me and these intelligent professors :)


he said, when he got admission in IIMA people congratulated, he had parties and people were crazy - "teri toh life ban gayi".


after a week, i was in my room, wondering, am i fit for this college?? will i survive? will i pass?


Same thing happened with me and i should have been very sad, i got 12/40 in case analysis. And its about logical thinking, in which i thought i was good. and this is second time i m getting the same score. i m lost, this was my best solution and the prof didnt even read it, people who had written crap got 22 and 25 and i had written what was pretty decent and perfect according to me, still i flunked and will probably flunk in this subject. At present my score is 24/80.


i m a lost cause.


than i get my spanish marks, i score 7 out of 15 which means i fail in spanish as well, this was when i had studied it well but didnt get time to complete it. just a week back i was so happy that i was passing in all foundation course exams, where everybody else was failing.


i guess this was my dip, my dip towards awakening.....


whatever it was i tried to start afresh through a game of volleyball where i sucked!!


i was having a bad day i knew and i retired to my den.

Next day we were having FCQs, it means surprise exam, where date is fixed, subject isnt.

I read pretty well and slept at about 2, maybe tomo is a better day.

Monday, July 16, 2007

17th July rewards


It was the day of operant conditioning. i had this yesterday :)
well i got the rewards or prizes of the various things, this was one of the better days in scmhrd due to following reasons:
1. Got selected in consultancy cell, a cell in which i desperately wanted to get into.
2. a friend gifted me chocolate
3. a friend gave me a warm hug.
4. it was my room mates b'day!!!
5. i m ill so i get to sleep more :)



starting from the bottom, i m ill and my tonsilitis is the worst thing i have ever contracted, its been 5 days since i have talked properly or swallowed my saliva without fear of pain and the medicines these people give are hopeless.
But it was my room mates party at mini-punjab and it was great!! i had lots of good things but sadly they didnt serve liqyor so i had to be contended with mocktails and sips of rum, wine and vodka.the sips were taken to avoid the wrath of people who were already slushed :) i had everything which would have worsened my tonsilitis in short but it was fun, seeing people creating havoc in restaurant after 5 bottles of whisky was a experience not so enjoyable because the person was my friend but alls well that ends well and we had a great party and a adventurous entry in the hostel as well.
the next two good events were from friends whom i had helped when they were ill, i had spent hours to take them to doctor and yesterday they both warmly thanked me in their special ways which i appreciate a lot. A friend gave me a chocolate and another hugged me and said few special words which just drowned me. she will remain a special friend and hopefully as mischievious as she is.
and well something on the academic grounds- i got selected in Research/consultancy cell. Its a superb cell and one of the few cells in which you can balance your acads and experience, they dont take freshers but i was lucky i guess. the target we have is to win and complete 20 projects by dec31, thats going to be a impossible task but surely thats one challenge i m gladly taking. hope we live up to the expectations.
and ya i have to go to city today for two reasons: to meet some specialist doc to show my throat and to meet a old friend who is in pune. hope i manage both these things.
And ya i had talks with few old friends, very enjoyable talks and something i will cherish for long.

thank you friends you are so important in my life. thnk you again.

Sunday, July 15, 2007

15 july

well again it was a day which can happen only in a B-school. things here just dont slip away, they make a loud thud before they pass. you are conscious every moment and the moments are not ordinary, they have weight and the weight is enjoyable.
It started from previous night, i was feeling dizzy and was waiting for my interview for research cell at 12 midnight. After a while i thought i will rather have medicines than rely on rest, so i went to the health centre after my interviews and there was diagnosed with viral fever, temp =103 almost. i walked back to the hostel tired and alone (in rains :( ). On reaching hostel i felt a bit better and was planning to work on something, but my throat was giving me enough trouble to force me to lie down, It was difficult to swallow even saliva. the next day i woke up in more trouble at 830 to reach class at 9, gave my attendance and ranout of the class, its a big deal here, people are too sidha-sadha . reached hostel met a old friend and had a very enjoyble breakfast with him, i was forcing food in my throat, pune is hospital in rains, almost 40% of students are ill at any given time.
Than i came to know that our attendance got cancelled, a serious setback and a potential meeting with the devil-diro. i somehow managed the rest of the classes and reached hostel at 7, played football for few minutes than was too tired so went to my room to do WAC assignment, thats case analysis and that takes more than 12hours and i had some 14hours. well i managed to do analyse it before 12 and than we had great fun celebrating my room mates birthday. i was ill, was having terrible throat still i ate a lot of cake, was almost wet in cold drink and it was a kiddu celebration for all 25+year olds :) Surprising thing was that my other room, devinder from ahmedabad didnt even stand up from his chair, he was doin his assignment and i dont know what. well than i got back to my assignment and completed it by 230, pretty fast, and left for copa america final- argentina vs brazil. my throat was detiorating at a faster rate than my hopes for argentina. still i managed watching the whole match and it was fun. Out of a batch of 200 students just 2 of us were watching such a important match. i wonder what kind of batch i am in and what should i expect in future!!!!!
well after the match, i gave final touches to the assignment and started another assign, at 7 left for vedanta, thats a subject for internal peace ;) and for me i m at peace with myself when i m asleep ;) so i slept and here i m now, taking printout for the assignment and wondering how did i enjoy all this?? had this been somewhere else i would have taken a totally different course, well i didnt rest, i ate all wrong things and completed my assigns and attended classses when i was having fever at high temp, i kept up all night to watch a match and now i still feel that i enjoyed it all, hope i wash it with something dry tonite :)) its party all nite tonight :)

while going through all this lot of names kept coming in minds and lot of threads of memories struck a chord and i smiled, in the pause full of peace. hope all of you are having a better time.

management is about living fast thru non productive activities and slowing down while doing productive work and its for you to decide what is productive for you and wat is not.

No fun in pulling a fast one. - PK.

Sunday, June 24, 2007

a happening day - 22 june

early to bed and early to rise makes a person healthy wealthy and wise!!!
our college follows the same ideology, we go to bed early in d morning and wake up early in d morning :)

But well its fun most of the time, you dont have to put in efforts to keep up, the goals and work just do their part too well, plus you meet some faculty who are just too good to ignore and too sharp to be even genius. well thats my college, some faculty are genius few are crap and others i have still not heard of them, as i sleep in their lectures.

well this day started pretty early, went to the gym and swimming pool in the morning at 6 and than to college, well in the class it was some good old man teaching so i comfortably slept. But than the 'D' came... he peeked in class and caught us sleeping, he called us to his office and gave a firing.
((he asked us whether p chidambaram sleeps with us ??))

well after it was done, we were all good and fine still. and in d evening we went for a walk amidst mountains, just behind our college. it was fun and exciting and a great stress buster. now i have bundles of assignments and unlike nirma i dont even have friends who are with me under the banner- "always late" so i m pretending - "a sincere me" and its very difficult.

And well about friends, well the friends here are quite good, few are very considerate. i never knew that someone's thinking could be this close to mine. well i continue to suprise myself and always its a new me everyday. i got a letter from a friend saying sorry about something menial and that made me happy, thank you buddy!! i dont know why i was happy, as usual i dont know the important things :)

i am playing football but it rains continously so we cant play during that time, but ya pune is very very very very beautiful in rains!!! a cup of coffee, strong cool wind and two good friends sitting-facing winds is an awesome experience. hope u all enjoy it someday!! And well i was chucked out of PLC where i had made it to last 12, so that was a setback. am going to do a research project on films and B-school ranking. at present in a lab where mam has asked us to read a article on SAP and we will be having a test on that after 15min, so i wil huryy noww.... bbye. adios. asta la vista.

Monday, June 18, 2007

walking alone

nothing travels faster than light, if it does, it travels in time as well and it goes back in past.

well thats what happens here, a interesting paradox. coz here time itself travels faster than light, wonder where it goes, could be back in past??

well i have been having frustrating dayz since last few dayz, was selected the class leader/ chief coordinator for a project and then was working on project when everyone else were studying for their exams.
i kept up all night almost just to complete my presentation and most probably will flunk big time in a subject and sadly i m not used to failing, hope i take it well.

but the worst thing about the blues is that the next day the director doesnt even see the presentation, all my keeping up goes in the bin and i flunk for nothing in a subject which i could have cleared.

well than after the exams i had a long walk, sometimes when we walk we feel as time slows down, its just you and the other person talking and nothing else around, no college, no pressure and well the rains come soon, physically as well as in memory.

it was supposed to be a good evening, as i went to a restaurant later on with friends where everybody except me enjoyd d food. later on i tried my leg at football and it didnt work :( well tired, upset and sad i returned to my hostel and slept before i could complete typing a message.

today was a difficult day as well, went for presentation with director and he fired quite exorbitantly :)

the only consolation has been that things are just bad, not worse.
the goal of getting into a B-school is -"TO GET OUT , AND GET OUT WELL." which seems unlikely for now.
adios. (i m learning spanish!!! actually sleeping in 'lecture de espanol')

Thursday, June 14, 2007

EXAMS

well everyday here is a story but time is a commodity with constraint... management jargon :)

today was a good long day.

i got up at 4, read for an hour than went to gym. came back at 730 and after breakfast reached college at 845 to attend lecture for 2 hours.

at 1130 we were having exams, first exam in symbi. well it was ok, not bad. will pass it comfortably, economics was the name of the subject.

after that had a series of exams, maths first and basics of computer science in the evening. And well, basics of computers was not a easy exam. last time 80 % of batch failed in it, of which 60% were engineers. this year figures will be better.

well after the exams i met one of my good friends here, i can call him to be one of my best friends here, but will satisfy with one of the best person. naresh puniyar. he was sharing plans for his NGO. and it was so nice to meet a person who can relate with you so well. he is a sports freak, very soft spoken, only person for whom i have used this term.

well after my exams as i came out i met his dream right there, some 30-35 kids playing in our campus, he brought one to introduce me to him and we talkd and played and well i taught them football. it was much better than teaching them english alphabets in class though.

being with them gives you solace and running around here in campus for studies gives me satisfaction. i sleep as soon as i lie close down, infact i have to fight to keep my eyes open in classes.

after that i had to run to hostle and come back for swimming, than played football at the end of heavy day and left without meeting a friend.

i went to hostel and was reading a novel and got a call from friend asking where i am and she disconnected it.

later on a friend came to my room to give me a pastry she had brought for me, it was yummy and so satisfying.

than i went to cafe and we were singing on the tunes of guitar, my room mate plays decent guitar.


than i slept so fast, that i woke up in the morning for gym and was as fresh as i can ever be.

Thursday, June 7, 2007

First week

The first week here at scmhrd was good. people here have planned lot of things and have planned it well. they know few things and those few things include everything about you.



well the first interesting programme is OBL outbound learning, in which we play lotta games in groups and get to know each other well. we made lot of friends and are now much closer than we could have been.



but then the massacre started my schedule since last four dayz is :



520 : wake up

600 : health centre - yoga gym swimming ...

720 : reach home

855 : reach classrooms

620 : classrooms over assignments in group to be solved

845 : hostel for lunch

930 : football

1130: reach hostel and start reading or complete foundation course assigns which others have already done.

0200: sleep (and by 4 everybody in my room wake and start reading)



well its tough to be in this schedule but it depends on your batch profile as well, most of the students being rankers do not break any rules and that makes things very difficult for the whole class. they do everything the prof sayz and that too in time !!!!



Besides that, its a battle in class against sleep. if eyes were having muscles, mine would have had the best muscles, coz they are strained all the while. But than at the end of the day, sitting with a friend and listening to what their life outside the campus was or whatever makes u feel better, and yeh theres nothing like boy or a girl here, everybody is just a resource.



we work at 4th degree of hard work - hard harder hardest and hardly! coz most of the time we are not working we are toiling, to complete assignments or reach places on time and everytime its running. now people have started feeling the stress though, apart from few guyz like me no one comes to play, many are having back aches some are having some other medical problems.


and well there were just 4 ppl playing football yesterday. one of them got caught in hrm class, couldnt keep his eyes open. second nabbed in organisation behaviour. now we two are remaining with 2 difficult classes ahead - marketing and wac. hope the ends well have loads of assign and probably exam day after tomo, they dont even tell us that :) we dont care as well :))

Its thriller here, we have full freedom and no freedom. I m trying to talk with merc-benz ppl to allow us to play football on their ground, hope it works out.

besides that campus is beautiful in this weather. it rains well and the coffee here spoils it all :( will end the blog before i m not allowed in class.